this is not what i thought initially.
i thought there won't be problems, no more worries, no more emo-ing now
but it was the opposite way...
i see, i sense problems coming up..
and i began worrying what i did was all correct.
often, i gave people attitude, oh yes, it may sound zhuai, but i seriously mean no harm
to my mum, to my friends, to close ones..
i must say thank you to everyone.
after all, i am NOT a perfect friend or ideal boyfriend either.
i am neither here nor there...
and i learnt that sorry isn't everything, something just can't be forgiven
like how attitude i had talked, yet i received unexpected reply from you.
you got the wrong answer
There are so many things i do not know about you, and you do not me about me.
and i have yet to discover them all.
wondering here if i were to be given the privilege to do so?
It's all a domino effect
lost about how to be perfect
worried about the different views , and how outsiders' eyes sees
tired from work, getting irritated at work
i rushed home today, feeling hungry and disappointed..
the lack of sleep, coming home late every night, late dinner
the side effect of carrying heavy stuffs - backache
these are the untold stories
i am not superman, yes i know............
but i never complain once, because i feel it was worth while
though i was tired outside, i was smiling inside.
my smart colleagues saw something wrong about me right in the morning..
am i bad at hiding stuffs?
so please let me stay at home and what i had done previous. Let me reflect and hopefully be a better man, is that alright?
i don't know how to continue...teach me how
as i move along, i realise
differences the through work you do how?
holding back..holding back in whatever i do...
even my emotions...
i always feel i could do better than this...
