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omg so exceited and happy yesterday. i can't believe i finally managed to talk to her. =) and even had a bus ride with her. though she don't really know who i am la.

can't wait for tutoial later on. well shall update in details when i am free:)

Thursday, November 30, 2006
11:40 AM

yay..i am here to update again..dots. just had this water technology lecture test. but this is one test i am not confident with. because i study all the wrong stuffs! sighs. the test is kind of easy if you had revise the tutorial work. but the fact is that i didn't go through them. who knows the same question would appear in test as tutorial questions? shrugs T.T well i really want to do well for my CDS. yup it's kind of tough but interesting to study scienticfic facts sometimes. just business can be quite boring! hahas...guess that's all folks.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006
10:36 PM

right now i am trying hard not to think too much. i am trying to be alone, and i should be alone. i just want to be study freak now..does nothing else but study, study and more study. may be i should tell myself that in this world, people come and people go. i shouldn't worry too much and let thing be on it's own. whether it's sad or happy i still have to go on. so what's the big deal? and i don't expect myself to approach her either. siggghhhsss...so what more do you expect? i wanted to start talking to her, but i am just one useless bastard:) i wish my wishes come true. that is to be able to group with her for the project. nothing else much but only that right now. i know it's kind of impossible, very impossible beacause somehow we already done this little group work and there shouldn't be any changes unless others want to. and who would want to work with someone whom he/she doen't even know? right? so i am not having a lot of hopes on this. i should say i am feeling a little better compared to my last entry. okie.

today had a quick test on businss stats. i think it's kind of a interesting one with numbers. although i am not good at numbers, it's fun doing it:) have water tech test tomorrow. i hope i will have some time to revise during the long break in i got in the library. sometimes it is good to be alone. where you can do your own stuffs without caring anything. i quite love to be alone thought. being a loner isn't that bad actaully. yeah.

everyday i hope to see you, but you just don't appear, may be we are not fated and i am just a passer-by to you .=( nites nites

Monday, November 27, 2006
11:22 PM

after not updating for so long, i am finally doing it tonight. but it's definitely not something good to share about. i know i shouldn't be in the mood of depression. but it seems i have once again lost control of myself. i am hiding everything from my friends. so i guess only this blog knows about it. frankly speaking, my mood isn't up to any jokes or criticism at this moment. you can do anything, say anything, i will just treat it as nothing. but not during this period please. keeping quiet doesn't mean i am fine. it's just that i don't want any trouble.v please spare me for this period!!! im begging you, to whoever that maybe concern. please don't provoke me or i may just explode onto you.

the reason why i am so depressing is because of something dumb, obviously. just what's the problem with me?? i feel like a real loser. complaining, groaning about my unhappiness. getting depressed because of a girl i got crush during my cds. now i may never got to know this girl. or should i say i just too afriad to approach her? rah i dont know what the hell i am talking all about. i does don't know how to phrase them. no whatever. shall end here. but i do hope to talk to her one day..i wish....

to be continued....

Friday, November 24, 2006
10:36 PM