i dont know how to continue my story
desperately need someone, you, to help me....
are you willing to?
i guess it's time to serious about life now
which means i would be doing more serious things
and also less time to online (i know i always appear offline)
and i need lots of motivation...lots..
i need to excerise more often
rather than sitting in front of the computer table
and started wasting my time away
i am NOT going to...
seeing other people makes me sad...
sad because of seeing what others are capable of people
but happy because the other party is happy
why am i not capable of doing it?
i have always thought of what to do, but i just never do it.
and everytime i thought of doing that, it shall fail
i crapped...if only i dare to.
people are always looking for sweet guys..
well if so then i am definitely not a sweet one
may be i just haven't reach that stage yet lahs
or may be i won't do it even if it happens
i have always wanted to..but i guess because i hate myself for a particular reason
and so i hide.......
forgive me....
rahhh
touched by those rescue scenes at television on the china earthquake
people crying their hearts out..one of the more memorable one were when a 3 yr old girl was interviewed about the whereabout of her mum.
"she's dead," she said.
is it just too tough for this little girl to accept?
she may be young, but very dong shi..yupps
a lady had to saw her own legs, because the rescue team couldn't enter the small gap
well i know this is just be the bing shan yi jiao...
but it's just too saddening
though the death toll may be lesser than Myanmar cyclone disaster...
human beings...sometimes there's just too little things we can do to help.
so fragile...it reminds me of the show i watch about the 911 incident..
how people struggle to survive.
guess i must learn how to appreciate every little thing in life
and treasure people i like and love :)
may those who dead in both china earth quake and Myanmar cyclone rest in peace
noticed certain things ain't necessary...
i got to tell myself this..
i am going to fail people who have hopes on me
in one way or another
and the saying goes " strike the iron while it's hot"
well it's not that hot after all now....
things are starting to cool...
blow blow blow....
finally.
i found out being sad is the only way to motivate me to work...
but being sad is not good for health
so question comes. keep it? or drop it?
lets keep it going for the time being....
whenever i am down, i began to say non sense, i began to think do doing stupid things..
so please pardon me my friends...i couldn't help it.
my brain's playing tricks on me again..
i don't mean to be lazy...i don't mean not to do my work...
it's just i don't understand!!!!
i need to vent my anger on something, anything that would make me feel better
this is the point which turns someone into devil...
i don't even dare to face myself, so how am i going to face others? and everyone else?
i couldn't believe i am losing control once again................
please end my torture...
he doesn't know, he couldn't think a little more of me...
as always being the weak one...
thats why i receive more than you
he just don't understand how envy the little boy is..
he wishes he was better...probably you are his idol...
at the point of breaking down, but it's too early...
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