my mood has completely changed since after thursday. i was sadden that i didn't even talk to her at all for the whole tutorial, or should i say i don't have the chance. well i was at high hope of say least a hi or a smile, but things don't turn out to be so. we are back to total strangers, so what things should be. what else, i couldn't group with her for the lab work and project work as well >.< why? why? i just want to use this little opportunities to know her better. but why no one is giving me this chance? so unfair. and from that evening onwards everything just sucks, sucks till now. and i don't know how worse things can be. have anyone thought of making over? haha..i was thinking of it. may be make over may change my entire life? shrugs.
mid-sem test is near and i have a fear i am not going to do well. i have been sloppy in my work lately. because i have little/no idea what's going on. and days just passed and i slacked through every single day. i suddenly feel life's meaningless once again. BOOOORRRRINNGGG...i am trying not to think of anything else but studying. TRYING.......................................
