sorry for not blogging. hmm..i have been dealing with my emotions over the weekend.
i wonder when it will stop.
hope it's forever.

i have been forgetting to blog about the important things. just too much happened. i won't be able to blog them all. it's month for august! a lot happened during this period last year. first it's about the national day. that night which i got rejected again. dumb me *cough cough* i shan't talk much about it since it's already the past. it's time to move on. and on the 8/13 which was suppose to be a fine day since it's my brother's birthday. but last year it was the faithful day which i got back my O'level chinese paper results. B3? not again. it was also the day i left the deepest scar. yepx...okie..shan't talk about it anymore..............

recently i have been 'trying' to study. but i am just too tired and lazy to do it. i just want to sleep, sleep and sleep. and i am not able to let my feelings flow lately. *numb*

i always wish i am him in your heart. assumptions are driving me insane. i am falling deeper since today. stupid and dumb me...

7/8/06
spend my noon with cai jun. it had been quite a long time since we last meet each other. anyway he paiseh me twice. i had been wanting to meet him since friday. but he's not free until sunday. meet him out at mos burger to eat lunch. it had been quite a long time since i last ate mos. i just love the fish burger there! yummy~~~chat abit the recently issues. well it's surprising that he's the only one i still go out with lahs. i don't know why. what happened to the 4Enduarance people? why am i keeping with cai jun who is in 4Faith. lols. shrugx. probably i am too lazy and quiet in msn.

went to play pool with him. he managed to draw with me 5-5. wahhahas..guess what he quit after this drawed the game. EEEEeeeee....wahahahs.. so we still haven't decide who's the winner. we shall continue another time after the exam. keke..

6/8/06
hmm..my phone is no longer my phone with all the pictures of others. even the wallpaper doesn't include me. kidding. oh ya. today i am so scared. i was shivering..heart was thumping.( correct spelling?) it's a pretty long story. but in the short it's an internal conflict in a group. every group seems to have their own problem. yes, i am already sick with this person. after today it's even worse lahs. gosh. some people are just so ungentlement. unlike me. bleahx. =p for example somone knock down my stuffs in lecture today and he just apologise to me? i was like what the.... hello? at least you help me to pick up my stuffs lahs..diaos. and i most importantly i think a guy shouldn't raise his voice at a girl (i never did *eyes rolling*). i just keep it in my heart..haix..almost had a fight. luckily it didn't happen. but i am just angry that because of that, he made a girl cry. BOOoooooo...RAHZ...

comm skil test is a nigthmare. however i manage to 'smile'. phew. it's not a surprise i fail this test. but i think i had tried my best le. i suppose everyone did. there's just not enough time to finish. i wonder what about the rest. omg you know what. today i see a chio bu twice!!! *joyjoy* and i can't believe we are 'togther' until my bus-stop. she lives just a few blocks away from me? then why don't i see her everyday? shrugx..

something it's bothering me lately..i can't stop thinking. have you ever think that the person you like is always noticing you when it's not. this happens to me all the time lahs. stupid. finally i want to end this entry with "If you don't have the courage, don't love."

tatas....

i am officially broke now. i will need to start saving again.

i promise i will never take cab to school in the morning again. took one on friday because i thought i need to be in school early. heartache you know. when the surcharge is $2 and i pass two ERP. they are less than 200m metres away from each other. there goes another $3. wow. i just wish to get down soon. and it cost me $16.10 to go school. diaos.

econs ended within half an hour. there wasn't any Q&A session. wasted our effort in the preparing. i wore a pink shirt to school!!! hahas..i love pink. lols. stayed back till 1pm for comm skil porject. it's the final project before the mid sem test.

oh ya.talking about projects. pom tutor evaluated each individual and guess what was my comment. gary's too nervous. ahahas..so damn true. my mind was totally in a mess after i broke the powerpoint lahs. i just to need speak and practice more. been in the school of business. you need strong presentation skill which i lack of. there are so many natural speakers in our class. make me envy them. =/ i just couldn't wait to get back our pom project grade next week. whee..hopefully it won't be ruined because of me.

okiex..back to friday. went to tampines mall to eat lunch at ajisen. my treat of course. i just hope everyone enjoys the meal. ^.^ the bill was damn X lahs. lols..it should be expensive. but it'a a nice number afterall, $55.55. dots eh? shall eat somewhere else next time. ann and shireen didn't come. guess i shall treat them another bahx. shop around in tm, looking some birthday present for sashi's cousins..hmm..by sashi's order, we went to coffee bean to 'eat' cake. bleahx..then back home.

it's not the end of day yet. went back home not long and suddenly was persuaded by my brother to buy a new phone. diaos lahx..he's always cheat my feelings..hahas..went to toa payoh to meet my brother girlfriend. told that there are cheap phones at there. i finally bought a new phone. happy le lahs..this is don't know how much times heartache than the treat. =.=" trade in my phone for $130 and bought the K800i. It's XXXXXX...then went delifrance to eat dinner. omg the food is quite horrible. luckily the dessert is nice. i manage to took the first picture using my new phone. xDDD
























they buy some durian home and take cab home. but brother is staying at her gf's place. so they will alight first. taxi driver complained about us not telling we have durians behind. dots. he almost ran away with my one durian left by my brother for my dad lohs. luckily i knocked on the back when he's about to drive away. i know. may be he loves durian too much and wants to eat also. lols..wahahas. x= shall end here..i am tired again..

gary is sad. gary isn't smart at all. gary is just a dumb ass. gary has run out of luck. i don't want to hide my sadness anymore.why?

got back my accouting test today. and not to my surprise i score this low. 31.5/50. hah. hah. hah. i have nothing to say. it hurts so much when i keep everything to myself. didn't i tell you that i am not going to do well?! didn't i tell you my life's going to be worse now? i feel so sick of myself. i really do. you put me high up and now you throw me down. i sustain serious damage.

skip my comm skil to go to hospital to see doctor. i wonder what i am going to do about it. had ice mocha and chicken puff for my lunch.

'you seems to have no problem with your voice'
'i do. i notice. everyone around me notices.'

and there goes the procedure..........

well. my vocal box is somehow damaged/injoured or whatever it is. it's gonna be a long treatment. that's all i know. yes gary, you have proved that your are right. the gay voice isn't your original voice. and YOU ALSO PROVED YOU ARE THE TROUBLEMAKER IN THE HOUSE. oh yes. trouble never seems to end for me.

i no longer can hold on. it's toally too much for me. traumatized. in the bus i just can't stop my mind thinking. it just come automatically. i shed one or two tears. such a long time since i last clear my tear glands. i can't wait to do what i am suppose/wanted to do. hah. just wait and see when i am going to do it again. i can't calm down. don't blame me if i am to do it. i am so fragile..

sorry for not blogging. hmm..i have been dealing with my emotions over the weekend.
i wonder when it will stop.
hope it's forever.

i have been forgetting to blog about the important things. just too much happened. i won't be able to blog them all. it's month for august! a lot happened during this period last year. first it's about the national day. that night which i got rejected again. dumb me *cough cough* i shan't talk much about it since it's already the past. it's time to move on. and on the 8/13 which was suppose to be a fine day since it's my brother's birthday. but last year it was the faithful day which i got back my O'level chinese paper results. B3? not again. it was also the day i left the deepest scar. yepx...okie..shan't talk about it anymore..............

recently i have been 'trying' to study. but i am just too tired and lazy to do it. i just want to sleep, sleep and sleep. and i am not able to let my feelings flow lately. *numb*

i always wish i am him in your heart. assumptions are driving me insane. i am falling deeper since today. stupid and dumb me...

7/8/06
spend my noon with cai jun. it had been quite a long time since we last meet each other. anyway he paiseh me twice. i had been wanting to meet him since friday. but he's not free until sunday. meet him out at mos burger to eat lunch. it had been quite a long time since i last ate mos. i just love the fish burger there! yummy~~~chat abit the recently issues. well it's surprising that he's the only one i still go out with lahs. i don't know why. what happened to the 4Enduarance people? why am i keeping with cai jun who is in 4Faith. lols. shrugx. probably i am too lazy and quiet in msn.

went to play pool with him. he managed to draw with me 5-5. wahhahas..guess what he quit after this drawed the game. EEEEeeeee....wahahahs.. so we still haven't decide who's the winner. we shall continue another time after the exam. keke..

6/8/06
hmm..my phone is no longer my phone with all the pictures of others. even the wallpaper doesn't include me. kidding. oh ya. today i am so scared. i was shivering..heart was thumping.( correct spelling?) it's a pretty long story. but in the short it's an internal conflict in a group. every group seems to have their own problem. yes, i am already sick with this person. after today it's even worse lahs. gosh. some people are just so ungentlement. unlike me. bleahx. =p for example somone knock down my stuffs in lecture today and he just apologise to me? i was like what the.... hello? at least you help me to pick up my stuffs lahs..diaos. and i most importantly i think a guy shouldn't raise his voice at a girl (i never did *eyes rolling*). i just keep it in my heart..haix..almost had a fight. luckily it didn't happen. but i am just angry that because of that, he made a girl cry. BOOoooooo...RAHZ...

comm skil test is a nigthmare. however i manage to 'smile'. phew. it's not a surprise i fail this test. but i think i had tried my best le. i suppose everyone did. there's just not enough time to finish. i wonder what about the rest. omg you know what. today i see a chio bu twice!!! *joyjoy* and i can't believe we are 'togther' until my bus-stop. she lives just a few blocks away from me? then why don't i see her everyday? shrugx..

something it's bothering me lately..i can't stop thinking. have you ever think that the person you like is always noticing you when it's not. this happens to me all the time lahs. stupid. finally i want to end this entry with "If you don't have the courage, don't love."

tatas....

i am officially broke now. i will need to start saving again.

i promise i will never take cab to school in the morning again. took one on friday because i thought i need to be in school early. heartache you know. when the surcharge is $2 and i pass two ERP. they are less than 200m metres away from each other. there goes another $3. wow. i just wish to get down soon. and it cost me $16.10 to go school. diaos.

econs ended within half an hour. there wasn't any Q&A session. wasted our effort in the preparing. i wore a pink shirt to school!!! hahas..i love pink. lols. stayed back till 1pm for comm skil porject. it's the final project before the mid sem test.

oh ya.talking about projects. pom tutor evaluated each individual and guess what was my comment. gary's too nervous. ahahas..so damn true. my mind was totally in a mess after i broke the powerpoint lahs. i just to need speak and practice more. been in the school of business. you need strong presentation skill which i lack of. there are so many natural speakers in our class. make me envy them. =/ i just couldn't wait to get back our pom project grade next week. whee..hopefully it won't be ruined because of me.

okiex..back to friday. went to tampines mall to eat lunch at ajisen. my treat of course. i just hope everyone enjoys the meal. ^.^ the bill was damn X lahs. lols..it should be expensive. but it'a a nice number afterall, $55.55. dots eh? shall eat somewhere else next time. ann and shireen didn't come. guess i shall treat them another bahx. shop around in tm, looking some birthday present for sashi's cousins..hmm..by sashi's order, we went to coffee bean to 'eat' cake. bleahx..then back home.

it's not the end of day yet. went back home not long and suddenly was persuaded by my brother to buy a new phone. diaos lahx..he's always cheat my feelings..hahas..went to toa payoh to meet my brother girlfriend. told that there are cheap phones at there. i finally bought a new phone. happy le lahs..this is don't know how much times heartache than the treat. =.=" trade in my phone for $130 and bought the K800i. It's XXXXXX...then went delifrance to eat dinner. omg the food is quite horrible. luckily the dessert is nice. i manage to took the first picture using my new phone. xDDD
























they buy some durian home and take cab home. but brother is staying at her gf's place. so they will alight first. taxi driver complained about us not telling we have durians behind. dots. he almost ran away with my one durian left by my brother for my dad lohs. luckily i knocked on the back when he's about to drive away. i know. may be he loves durian too much and wants to eat also. lols..wahahas. x= shall end here..i am tired again..

gary is sad. gary isn't smart at all. gary is just a dumb ass. gary has run out of luck. i don't want to hide my sadness anymore.why?

got back my accouting test today. and not to my surprise i score this low. 31.5/50. hah. hah. hah. i have nothing to say. it hurts so much when i keep everything to myself. didn't i tell you that i am not going to do well?! didn't i tell you my life's going to be worse now? i feel so sick of myself. i really do. you put me high up and now you throw me down. i sustain serious damage.

skip my comm skil to go to hospital to see doctor. i wonder what i am going to do about it. had ice mocha and chicken puff for my lunch.

'you seems to have no problem with your voice'
'i do. i notice. everyone around me notices.'

and there goes the procedure..........

well. my vocal box is somehow damaged/injoured or whatever it is. it's gonna be a long treatment. that's all i know. yes gary, you have proved that your are right. the gay voice isn't your original voice. and YOU ALSO PROVED YOU ARE THE TROUBLEMAKER IN THE HOUSE. oh yes. trouble never seems to end for me.

i no longer can hold on. it's toally too much for me. traumatized. in the bus i just can't stop my mind thinking. it just come automatically. i shed one or two tears. such a long time since i last clear my tear glands. i can't wait to do what i am suppose/wanted to do. hah. just wait and see when i am going to do it again. i can't calm down. don't blame me if i am to do it. i am so fragile..