i found out being sad is the only way to motivate me to work...
but being sad is not good for health
so question comes. keep it? or drop it?
lets keep it going for the time being....
whenever i am down, i began to say non sense, i began to think do doing stupid things..
so please pardon me my friends...i couldn't help it.
my brain's playing tricks on me again..
i don't mean to be lazy...i don't mean not to do my work...
it's just i don't understand!!!!
i need to vent my anger on something, anything that would make me feel better
this is the point which turns someone into devil...
i don't even dare to face myself, so how am i going to face others? and everyone else?
i couldn't believe i am losing control once again................
please end my torture...
he doesn't know, he couldn't think a little more of me...
as always being the weak one...
thats why i receive more than you
he just don't understand how envy the little boy is..
he wishes he was better...probably you are his idol...
at the point of breaking down, but it's too early...
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