exams are finally over. but i am not happy at all.

Monday's ms paper was a killer. i got about 35marks deducted already. but hopefully i will at least get some method marks from the questions. at least i didn't leave it blank thats for sure. kind of disappointed with myself despite of the high expectations and practices i went through, it's still not sufficient enough for me to secure a A for this subject. i would be glad if i get a B for this subject. i know no matter how good coursework grade is, the main examination will always pawn me.

Tuesday's logistic and supply chain management wasn't getting any better. i got no confidence in my answers and eventually i left before the last 10 minutes. i should be praying whether i can secure my B+ coursework grade for this. eventually i left school alone, went back to the 'familiar' place in my mind, standing at the bus stop alone this time round eating waffles. i felt lonely. my mind didn't tele with my actions. yes kou shi xin fei. the more afraid i am, the more i avoid. and this had definitely strained the friendship. i tend to spoil everything that is good. why? i was wondering if i may meet you there.

Just when i thought puchasing paper was much better, i saw once again you and him together. it wasn't surprising. just the sight just hurts me though abit lesser compared to the past. i dare not even approach you and rather choose to take an alternative route. i know you didn't want to see me neither. so i might as well move away automatically. i refuse to think, refuse to see, refuse to accept the truth. eventually i crawled back to the opposite after ensuring you left..what a pity..

and for today the last paper. i didn't sleep the whole night. napped for less than 2 hours after a quick dinner and only started at around 9. gosh..the whole long silent night. it was a good time to study for me definitely. i manage to study and absored quite abit with little/some distractions only. and before i noticed it was already 5/6 am. managed to try my best on this paper. thinking hard trying to recap what i drilled in the last night. i was feeling so shagged and stressed in the bus journey..and the 2 women behind me kept talking food. i felt totally disgusted. i wouldn't concentrate to study the bit of operations management.

i already rushed and made my way to the bus stop with jian ming after the exam. i knew you and him had eye contact with each other. bus 8 failed to come after so damn long and had only after you and him were here. you may have spotted me. beacuse i hope you did so you won't come and let me see you. or may be you spotted me boarding the bus and decided to walk with him. i could only watch as the bus drove past such a loving couple, walking together. how depressing..

you may have thought you have think out many possiblities out there. but there's always something unexpected happening. simply beacuse you are not god.

so how am i going to survive again?

exams are finally over. but i am not happy at all.

Monday's ms paper was a killer. i got about 35marks deducted already. but hopefully i will at least get some method marks from the questions. at least i didn't leave it blank thats for sure. kind of disappointed with myself despite of the high expectations and practices i went through, it's still not sufficient enough for me to secure a A for this subject. i would be glad if i get a B for this subject. i know no matter how good coursework grade is, the main examination will always pawn me.

Tuesday's logistic and supply chain management wasn't getting any better. i got no confidence in my answers and eventually i left before the last 10 minutes. i should be praying whether i can secure my B+ coursework grade for this. eventually i left school alone, went back to the 'familiar' place in my mind, standing at the bus stop alone this time round eating waffles. i felt lonely. my mind didn't tele with my actions. yes kou shi xin fei. the more afraid i am, the more i avoid. and this had definitely strained the friendship. i tend to spoil everything that is good. why? i was wondering if i may meet you there.

Just when i thought puchasing paper was much better, i saw once again you and him together. it wasn't surprising. just the sight just hurts me though abit lesser compared to the past. i dare not even approach you and rather choose to take an alternative route. i know you didn't want to see me neither. so i might as well move away automatically. i refuse to think, refuse to see, refuse to accept the truth. eventually i crawled back to the opposite after ensuring you left..what a pity..

and for today the last paper. i didn't sleep the whole night. napped for less than 2 hours after a quick dinner and only started at around 9. gosh..the whole long silent night. it was a good time to study for me definitely. i manage to study and absored quite abit with little/some distractions only. and before i noticed it was already 5/6 am. managed to try my best on this paper. thinking hard trying to recap what i drilled in the last night. i was feeling so shagged and stressed in the bus journey..and the 2 women behind me kept talking food. i felt totally disgusted. i wouldn't concentrate to study the bit of operations management.

i already rushed and made my way to the bus stop with jian ming after the exam. i knew you and him had eye contact with each other. bus 8 failed to come after so damn long and had only after you and him were here. you may have spotted me. beacuse i hope you did so you won't come and let me see you. or may be you spotted me boarding the bus and decided to walk with him. i could only watch as the bus drove past such a loving couple, walking together. how depressing..

you may have thought you have think out many possiblities out there. but there's always something unexpected happening. simply beacuse you are not god.

so how am i going to survive again?