living a 頹廢 life theses days.. i no wonder find life interesting. what's the purpose of going to school? don't tell me to study i hate to study nowadays. i no longer find motivation to go school, to study, to do my tutorial work. getting lazier and more lifeless. sleeping for more than 12 hours..skipping morning lectures. what have i turn myself into? where's the happy gary?
lost in the world thinking about you. thinking of stupid reasons to continue his life. he wishes he is better. he wishes for a happy ending between him and the girl he falls in love. he wish to be happy forever. because happiness is the world to him. and you are his world. he wish that happy ending will always come by, just in any drama he watches. he waits, waiting, and waited. but will this change? he feeling more hopeless, more depress each day, as the words between he and the girl got lesser and lesser. till there was total silence one day. he finally broke the silence. but soon this barrier build up again. his classmates didn't know anything, that he was being rejected by the girl already. they continue to tease on him. and he wasn't sure if he should tell his classmates, so they can stop. he feels very 'diu lian' to speak to his classmates about this. his heart actually aches every time he thinks of the girl.
he no longer wish to come school to study. because seeing the girl is a pain. he finds no place to stand, may be not even in the world of friends..words don't come out of his mouth that often anymore. he knows his results is going to drop if he continues this way. but to him results is nothing but a sheet of paper. he hopes for love. he read a book that even worsen his thought. he don't want to get hurt anymore. he wonder why he has to go through all these, and yet can't find the right girl. he scares he may end up as what the book said, which he don't want to. he's desperate, you may think. he continues to wonder.......
lets pray he will be happier after he wrote this...
smilez =//
