awaken by a loud 'bang' at 0730am yesterday, i went out of my room, saw my mum holding her right wrist in pain. cardboard and ladder fell, in a total mess. i realised it's something serious. damn..called dad and he said we better not wait..went to to polyclinic..waited to see doctor, then x-ray..it was a fracture in the right wrist, with some displacement and swollen..directed to A&E of hospital then..cabbed to SGH. waited..waited and more waiting...see another doctor at 2..dad came by to see how's things is going. was directed to the bone specialist..waited for 4 hours just to get the temporary cast done. no point complaining because all they can say is wait. followed by another x-ray to see if it's properly done..another hours plus of waiting..everyone is just frustrated, especially dad. i was couldn't help it. i dare not nap before my dad came by..and even when he was here, i manage to nap a while. spent a total of 12hours+ just to get simple things done..wasted time and money, most importantly pain you suffered. a lesson to learn, treasure your body and never let anything happen.

and who's fault was it? me. mum was suppose to be out with dad to our new house in the morning. mum stayed because she wanted to cook porridge for me, and meanwhile taking down the curtain to clean where she just fell off the ladder accidentally. why did i bring so much trouble to others? i didn't go for my project meeting at 12 and tutorial at 4 in the end for the first time, because i didn't want to leave my parents alone there, knowing there would be some communication problem. i know i did the right choice, because nothing is more important than my family.

i hope you are there for me. because i want to cry. will be lend me your shoulder? what am i saying.thinking of the consequences if she was on the chair, wiping the window. i wish i got the courage to go up, hug you and say 'i don't wanna lose you mum'. you don't seem to understand. and giving me some sort of attitude. i already apologised for not coming! why still nag at give me attitude?!! i can't seem to tolerate this. because i believe what i did for my family is right. will you do for your family too? thinking you, as a cancerian will understand me most, but you failed to. what a disappointment. but who is to be blamed? me. because of my own doing, now i am suffering. your perception of me changed, no doubt. i 'thought' i can still change it, but it's never easy. forget it...i just don't want to think of you right now and this moment.

awaken by a loud 'bang' at 0730am yesterday, i went out of my room, saw my mum holding her right wrist in pain. cardboard and ladder fell, in a total mess. i realised it's something serious. damn..called dad and he said we better not wait..went to to polyclinic..waited to see doctor, then x-ray..it was a fracture in the right wrist, with some displacement and swollen..directed to A&E of hospital then..cabbed to SGH. waited..waited and more waiting...see another doctor at 2..dad came by to see how's things is going. was directed to the bone specialist..waited for 4 hours just to get the temporary cast done. no point complaining because all they can say is wait. followed by another x-ray to see if it's properly done..another hours plus of waiting..everyone is just frustrated, especially dad. i was couldn't help it. i dare not nap before my dad came by..and even when he was here, i manage to nap a while. spent a total of 12hours+ just to get simple things done..wasted time and money, most importantly pain you suffered. a lesson to learn, treasure your body and never let anything happen.

and who's fault was it? me. mum was suppose to be out with dad to our new house in the morning. mum stayed because she wanted to cook porridge for me, and meanwhile taking down the curtain to clean where she just fell off the ladder accidentally. why did i bring so much trouble to others? i didn't go for my project meeting at 12 and tutorial at 4 in the end for the first time, because i didn't want to leave my parents alone there, knowing there would be some communication problem. i know i did the right choice, because nothing is more important than my family.

i hope you are there for me. because i want to cry. will be lend me your shoulder? what am i saying.thinking of the consequences if she was on the chair, wiping the window. i wish i got the courage to go up, hug you and say 'i don't wanna lose you mum'. you don't seem to understand. and giving me some sort of attitude. i already apologised for not coming! why still nag at give me attitude?!! i can't seem to tolerate this. because i believe what i did for my family is right. will you do for your family too? thinking you, as a cancerian will understand me most, but you failed to. what a disappointment. but who is to be blamed? me. because of my own doing, now i am suffering. your perception of me changed, no doubt. i 'thought' i can still change it, but it's never easy. forget it...i just don't want to think of you right now and this moment.