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secrets are no longer secrets. i feel it's kind of early..and awkward to let people know how i feel thuogh. but is it a good thing to open myself up? and not bottling everything up? now that my poly friends know about it. i feel damn weird lahs..don't know if i had made the right choice revealing stuffs too fast. shrugs.

so i went to meet up with shiqi for a late lunch in the airport staff canteen. i reached early and walked around in the airport. eventually i went to terminal 2, hoping may be i could meet her there instead of terminal 1 burger king, which we were suppose to meet. then she called asking where i was. so i told her i at t2 and she's at bk. ended up she's in t1 burger king instead. dots..hahas..kaes lahs. it was kind of my fault, since we are suppose to meet at t1..i am such a fool (:
then we ate and chatted till 5 bahs..but i feel bad cause i didn't accompany her home. shouldn't i? shrugs lah..i just feel i may be going to far..as what i am now. anyway i am just stucked at that point of asking. i have been wanting to tour around the airport lahs..never tried before because the time i will be at airport will be going overseas. that's why i wish........

i am such a fool )):

went to vivio to meet up with 1b06 gang and celebrated shireen's birthday at earle swensen.. ouch hahas..and we just chatted somewhere in vivio..all sort of stuffs..crapping session as usual :) it was fun..especially when i was asked about that sensitive topic lahs..kaos..total embarrassment. shall not share about it. =/ decided to stay a little longer, till the last train was gone. lols..and yisim had to report home..well it's my first time seeing her staying till that late lahs..that's a little improvement though:) cab home and just dead...

after yesterday i have lots of doubts about you...unsolved..
i am beginning to be a paranoid. these and that. how??

i rather not know the truth you feel about me.
no idea but i am not ready to face the reality yet
just keep running
no point i know
what if it is a 'no'?
i don't even dare to think.
nightmare will come.

Sunday, May 20, 2007
11:09 AM