i don't know how to start.

orientation was quite okay. played some icebreaker games and did some cheers. ermm. i just have short term memory(stm) remebering the names of new classmates. everyone seems to be doing just fine, except me lahs..so embarrassing. cancer should have powerful memory. okay i am the exception. was so lost. thanks for peeps who helped me hahas. got to know some very enthusiastic and passionate peeps. our cheers isn't that good compared to others. super soft and everyone was like trying to stand against the wall before the cheer starts. lols. no idea why i guess no one want to stand in first row and throw face =p then got this hunting game? hmm..must accomplish certain tasks. some which are very lame. gosh..i hid myself and tried not to participate..=/

and guess what T04(my class) won third lahs..kind of unbelievable. hahas. why? because i thought we may get second mahs. dots..and what is our prize? food food and more food shared among our class. yeaa...

went to amk central after that to eat with weiming and caijun. drank a bottle of beer. trying to numb myself. i know it doesn't help at all lahs. mood jsut swing. what to do. i hope i just get drunk lahs.. don't ask me even why. i don't know. it's just nothing...suddenly i feel like shouting this

I DON'T WANT TO BE A BACHELOR!!!!

to be continued....


i don't know my feelings now. i am a failure. i can only tell others to do this and that. and yes i think it's a must to express the feelings to others. chances don't come by easily. life is like a game. you miss it and you will regret. i have lots of regrets in my life right now, happening everyday. i have seen a lot of people i like. but i didn't do anything. i have my personal reasons for that. 'Know where you stand' i have nothing to boost about, unlike many others. a loser like me doesn't deserve anything. i have thought of this 'what will happen if i am no longer in this world?' life will still continue. there may be a small group of people who will be sad. saddness in them won't last forever. life continuessss...in this world. i am just a like dust, bacteria, atoms, electrons...whatever. so what if i like this girl in my class? so what?!? i know i won't do a thing! i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. and don't tell me any theory. because it just doesn't get in my brain.

i don't know how to start.

orientation was quite okay. played some icebreaker games and did some cheers. ermm. i just have short term memory(stm) remebering the names of new classmates. everyone seems to be doing just fine, except me lahs..so embarrassing. cancer should have powerful memory. okay i am the exception. was so lost. thanks for peeps who helped me hahas. got to know some very enthusiastic and passionate peeps. our cheers isn't that good compared to others. super soft and everyone was like trying to stand against the wall before the cheer starts. lols. no idea why i guess no one want to stand in first row and throw face =p then got this hunting game? hmm..must accomplish certain tasks. some which are very lame. gosh..i hid myself and tried not to participate..=/

and guess what T04(my class) won third lahs..kind of unbelievable. hahas. why? because i thought we may get second mahs. dots..and what is our prize? food food and more food shared among our class. yeaa...

went to amk central after that to eat with weiming and caijun. drank a bottle of beer. trying to numb myself. i know it doesn't help at all lahs. mood jsut swing. what to do. i hope i just get drunk lahs.. don't ask me even why. i don't know. it's just nothing...suddenly i feel like shouting this

I DON'T WANT TO BE A BACHELOR!!!!

to be continued....


i don't know my feelings now. i am a failure. i can only tell others to do this and that. and yes i think it's a must to express the feelings to others. chances don't come by easily. life is like a game. you miss it and you will regret. i have lots of regrets in my life right now, happening everyday. i have seen a lot of people i like. but i didn't do anything. i have my personal reasons for that. 'Know where you stand' i have nothing to boost about, unlike many others. a loser like me doesn't deserve anything. i have thought of this 'what will happen if i am no longer in this world?' life will still continue. there may be a small group of people who will be sad. saddness in them won't last forever. life continuessss...in this world. i am just a like dust, bacteria, atoms, electrons...whatever. so what if i like this girl in my class? so what?!? i know i won't do a thing! i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. i don't stand a chance. and don't tell me any theory. because it just doesn't get in my brain.