am i very childish? tell me guys. i don't know what makes you say so. my attitude? i just got no plain idea. may be our preceptions towards this word is different from yours. it just pierce through my heart. so depresssing..so saddening..it has been a while since i really felt so. i feel like tearing right now. i really do. i don't want to act tough on the outside. what's the purpose of holding on to this? i don't get it. only i can understand why i am so sad. i guess you won't even notice your words have hurt me so much. this is how you feel about me. but am i someone good with nothing to you? am i really that sucks in your mind? i don't know. i want to find out more. but it seems i don't have the courage to continue anymore. why would i feel so sad? i am so depress right now...i want to let my tears drop. i suddenly got the urge to cut myself again. letting pain overwhelm sadness isn't too good right? why? why? why do i react so big when i hear that? although i really thankful you speak out the truth you feel about me. didn't realise i am that lousy. i never notice someone i like last time will feel i am a chidish person until today. never!! although i know i don't have the looks, i didn't realise right from the beginning, my actions are nothing but showing my 'chidlishness' inside me. i have been so depressing these days. have sleepness nights..trying to recover from friday. and now i am like being thrown down into the well of forever darkness. i know i wouldn't make it back into the bright side. will i act differently if someone else were to tell me this? will i act differently?
i am not angry. i am just sad. the words have just hurt me too deeply. i no longer know how to face this world, how to face others. i am ashamed of myself. thanks.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
10:12 PM
fellow peeps...am i very childish?
am i very childish? tell me guys. i don't know what makes you say so. my attitude? i just got no plain idea. may be our preceptions towards this word is different from yours. it just pierce through my heart. so depresssing..so saddening..it has been a while since i really felt so. i feel like tearing right now. i really do. i don't want to act tough on the outside. what's the purpose of holding on to this? i don't get it. only i can understand why i am so sad. i guess you won't even notice your words have hurt me so much. this is how you feel about me. but am i someone good with nothing to you? am i really that sucks in your mind? i don't know. i want to find out more. but it seems i don't have the courage to continue anymore. why would i feel so sad? i am so depress right now...i want to let my tears drop. i suddenly got the urge to cut myself again. letting pain overwhelm sadness isn't too good right? why? why? why do i react so big when i hear that? although i really thankful you speak out the truth you feel about me. didn't realise i am that lousy. i never notice someone i like last time will feel i am a chidish person until today. never!! although i know i don't have the looks, i didn't realise right from the beginning, my actions are nothing but showing my 'chidlishness' inside me. i have been so depressing these days. have sleepness nights..trying to recover from friday. and now i am like being thrown down into the well of forever darkness. i know i wouldn't make it back into the bright side. will i act differently if someone else were to tell me this? will i act differently?
i am not angry. i am just sad. the words have just hurt me too deeply. i no longer know how to face this world, how to face others. i am ashamed of myself. thanks.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
10:12 PM
hello
Lo Chun Yip,Gary
8 July 87
Temesak Polytechnic
Diploma in Logistics Operations & Management
