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after not updating for so long, i am finally doing it tonight. but it's definitely not something good to share about. i know i shouldn't be in the mood of depression. but it seems i have once again lost control of myself. i am hiding everything from my friends. so i guess only this blog knows about it. frankly speaking, my mood isn't up to any jokes or criticism at this moment. you can do anything, say anything, i will just treat it as nothing. but not during this period please. keeping quiet doesn't mean i am fine. it's just that i don't want any trouble.v please spare me for this period!!! im begging you, to whoever that maybe concern. please don't provoke me or i may just explode onto you.

the reason why i am so depressing is because of something dumb, obviously. just what's the problem with me?? i feel like a real loser. complaining, groaning about my unhappiness. getting depressed because of a girl i got crush during my cds. now i may never got to know this girl. or should i say i just too afriad to approach her? rah i dont know what the hell i am talking all about. i does don't know how to phrase them. no whatever. shall end here. but i do hope to talk to her one day..i wish....

to be continued....

Friday, November 24, 2006
10:36 PM