back to school on thursday and today..hmm.. noticed something different..uncertainty. miss out lots of fun in school. you know i am not suppose to laugh and yet the dummies are making me laugh all the way. ahahas..it hurts la..okiex...stayed back though other dummies ask me to go home and rest early. but what's there to do at home other than sleeping? i rather spend more time with the dummies, yeah. but when it comes to learning, i have lots of problems understanding. things are getting so much tougher, i wonder how many times can i be that lucky in tests. pressure do comes, i want to do maintain my standard of performance, if not better. microecon had killed me this time around. only 67/100 if if anyone have not know...okiex...sashi was so sad because of the indian culture group. guess her friend 'pangseh' her at the very last minute..well this can always happen. then the other dummes were all trying to make her smile. that's what friends are for. okiex..dumb. they went understand the table and console her..lolx..and sashi was wearing a skirt you know? luckily leelin took her jacket and put it on her lap? in the end she went to the her culture group. told leelin, carista and sashi who i like, it's okie..(right) okiex..i know it's kind of dumb because what i should is to tell the her, not them! dots..but my feelings towards her getting numb. don't ask me why. i just feel it's impossible between us. just wait and see......
and since when i was asked to treat the dummies to sakae...give me a shock but it was all a play. hahas..actually i don't mind treating good girls ya know? bleahx..and i guess i was too tired and dull. someday, i promise i will give u dummies a treat, okie..but went to sakae then found out the waiting queue was so long..dotx..no choice but to eat as pastemania. haix..very wasteful of me*knock* ate so little. sorry i had just no appetite ever since i am discharge. made fun of leelin by saying she's fat. i guess she's a little angry with me though..sorry leelin~~~too bad they won't be able to view this blog..hahas..no dummies have yet to discover here. =p i TRIED not to hide things between true friends, but it's tough. took cab home because it was getting late. haix..the rest live so near, except me in ang mo kio! sobx..hahas..took cab before i got locked outside my house hahas..$12.10..hm..wonder how much it would be to go to from my house to tp after the taxi fare had rise..just curious.
friday- 14july
mircoecon is just killing me lahz..haix..i don't understand what the lecturer is trying to say...or may be i am just one dumb ass. had our captain's ball with 1b14. totally a nightmare. we fight well..smell of gunpowder was over the court. johnathon was so fed up he whacked the ball at the guy. lolx...of course he's out of the game after that. but they just sucks..we were all complaining their girls are bitchy. not to mention the guys lahz..cause they are worse. small little thing that guy shouted 'wait! wait! wait!' i think he's just trying to show off or what la. lame acting man infront of the girls trying to earn some credit. lolx..sorry if i am too mean. i wish i can go down and play and win for the class. i want to play so much. mood was affected when we lost the game terribly. haix..would we win if i was there? sorry but i thought i could help. i really want to. i hate myself for what i had gone through. seeing other people healthy, happy, playing and i am just sick the tired of myself. i tried to hide my other side. why is my life such a TRAGIC? i hate standing there and watch other sweat, people cheering on them. i am just pure jealous.
watched jian ming play basketball, not again right when i couldn't even bounce the ball properly now. i just hope i recover fast!!!! ARGH. feel so upset that i ended up playing pool with jian ming at bedok. suppossed to go to ann's house to sing. but i just feel so outcast. haix..whatever bahz. the games were horrribly played, especially me. my skills are suddenly gone and i ended up thrashed by him. i dislike losing. i guess i just sucks, oh yeah. shall end here. i am just too bored to continue writing =(
